Charlie Kirk’s widow, Erika Kirk, has opened up two months after his tragic death, sharing how she is coping and what she wishes could have been different. Her words give a raw look into grief, family, and the future she and Charlie had hoped for.

Her most heartbreaking admission is that she prayed she might be pregnant at the time he was killed.

Erika has spoken often about her husband’s death, describing the painful swings between deep sorrow and moments of unexpected comfort. She refuses to watch the video of the shooting, saying it would leave a mark she could never erase. She also stresses how easily people forget that life is fragile and precious.

Despite the tragedy, Erika has chosen to keep moving forward. She announced that Charlie’s podcast will continue, with rotating hosts to keep his mission alive. She wants his work to remain a guiding voice for the movement he cared about.

Erika is also using her experience to encourage young women and couples to start families sooner rather than later. She says careers can wait, but the window for children cannot. She and Charlie had dreamed of having four kids, which makes her confession even more emotional: she hoped she might be pregnant when he died, believing it could have been a small blessing during unthinkable loss.