A male escort known as Sharay Hayes, or The Punisher, says he was left “speechless” by Sean “Diddy” Combs’ unsettling reaction in court after watching explicit videos.

Diddy, 55, is on trial in New York facing charges of racketeering, sex trafficking, and prostitution, which he denies. Jurors recently viewed graphic clips from alleged “freak offs” involving Diddy, singer Cassie Ventura, and Hayes. Some clips were recorded secretly.

Hayes revealed he never knew he was being filmed. “Part of the deal was they’d take my phone so there’d be no recordings,” he told the Daily Mail. Seeing Diddy smiling and licking his lips after watching the footage stunned Hayes. “I’m speechless!” he admitted.

Hayes says the ordeal has been humiliating and worries the videos could leak. “It’s something I’ll carry forever. When people Google me, this is what they’ll see,” he said.

Prosecutors expect to call a few more witnesses. Meanwhile, the trial continues to grip the public with shocking details and reactions inside the courtroom.