Swedish DJ Avicii, born Tim Bergling, tragically ended his life on April 20, 2018, in Muscat, Oman, at 28. His last diary entries, detailing his mental health struggles and substance abuse, will be published in Måns Mosesson’s book, “Tim – The Official Biography of Avicii,” releasing January 18.

The diary entries recount Avicii’s rehabilitation for drug and alcohol abuse. He wrote, “I had a hard time accepting never drinking again though strongly suggested from all doctors to wait at least a year before even having a beer.” He admitted ignoring most doctors and continuing his intense touring schedule. Reflecting on his hospital stays, he noted, “Those days in hospital were the most anxiety and stress-free days I can remember.”

In 2015, after an intervention, Avicii entered the Ibiza Calm rehab center. He described his pain simplistically: “Ouch, pain. Why me pain now? Uncomfortable feeling. Future Tim deal with pain better than present Tim.” He also adopted meditation techniques from Maharishi Mahesh Yogi, meditating for hours, far beyond the recommended 20 minutes daily.

Before his death, an acquaintance in Oman grew concerned as Avicii wasn’t eating or speaking, alerting his father. Avicii’s final journal entry poignantly read, “The shedding of the soul is the last attachment, before it restarts!”